Monday, October 4, 2010 ~ 11:45 PM
my sweetest mistake.
Well, it's 10 minutes to midnight and as always, I am wide awake.
As usual, I'm just listening to my iPod. Just a brief look into myself, I realized how important music has been to me. My family is not exactly the most peaceful and perfect one there is so every time shit happened, I always turned to music.
I'm not exactly exaggerating when I say that music seriously prevented me from killing myself. Even now... *sigh* October has started with nothing more than problems and problems. I'm gonna tear myself dry if I continue crying everyday. Seriously.
*sigh* Fuck this. It's times like this when I need a dad or a mom by my side. But then again, what's new?My dad never wanted to be in the picture and my mom never gave a damn. Hooray, I have the best parents in the world. I may sound selfish every day talking about me, me and me. *sigh*
For once can it be about me and not your problems, your broken heart, your reason why your life is so miserable? I already know it's because of me, no need to keep rubbing it in.
*sigh* Shoot me. Shoot me instantly. Shoot me. I'm already dying inside.
