Well it's my semestral holidays now hence I am at home. Not gona work for the whole week so enjoying myself while I still can.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY TO ARRIVE COZ IT'S MY DEAR'S BOOK OUT DAY~!!! I seriously miss him so much. He smses me during his free time so I've got no complaints. Honestly, I feel like he's just at work and I'm at home while he tells me what he's doing... =]

*sigh* Been spending time with the twins alot for these past few days. Sunday after church went to Patsy and Kenneth's house where Mich, Shanice, Fabian, Nick and I played with the kids till late!! They were soooooooooooooooooooo cute!!! Then Monday went to the airport with the twins, Mich and Rachel!!!!! ONCE AGAIN CUTE!!!!!!! Tim bit my face when I was feeding him. He was giving me kisses first but then he bit my nose. CUTEEEEE!

Wanted to come over again today but now having a cold so not going since I don't want to pass the kids my cold. KM's super adorable coz he was "jealous" that Tim kept kissing me. CUTE TTM!!!!!

Seriously missing him now. Anyway as always having arguments with Mom again. Usual shit like Dad and blah... Aiyah, heck care. I stopped giving a damn long ago.

I'm happy with my life at the moment. I don't want it to change.

Well once again, insomnia has taken into place. It's been occurring more these past few days. He booked out of camp last Thursday then he fetched me from work the night after. Everybody there was like, "JEMIMAH! THERE'S SOMEONE HERE HORRRR!!" I didn't realize how much I missed him till I finally saw him again.

So blah blah blah. Went to meet him at TAKA Saturday night and had dinner with him and his friends again. They seriously are super friendly. They were like asking the two of us how we got together and I kinda got abit tongue-tied coz I didn't know how to tell them. I wanted to have a photo with him but as always, I've no guts to ask.

*sigh* I won't see him for 2 weeks. Probably gonna immerse myself in my studies so I won't miss him so much. OKAY CORRECTION: I won't feel the pain of missing him so much. ><

He's gonna sms me before he goes to sleep so I'm more than happy for that. GAAAAAAAAHHHH. I don't care. IT'S ONLY TWO WEEKS JEM, GET OVER IT. Just thinking about him makes me smile coz he seriously SERIOUSLY never ceases to surprise me. He does such adorable things and says things that I never ever expected him to say that I just can't help but fall for him more.

I keep thinking about me a few months back and I feel like telling myself from my past, "DON'T GIVE UP!! DON'T GIVE UP!! It's mutual. It really is." Even until now I still find it so surreal whenever I think that after all this time, he felt the same way. I don't know how much but there was chemistry. *sigh* I MISS HIM NOW.

Woke up with cold sweat and tears streaming down my face. I'm already wide awake, yet why am I still crying? Why do I still feel shaken? I'm wide awake yet why do I still feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare?

Tomorrow's the day he goes to NS. I won't see him till 2 weeks later. 2 days ago was the last time I saw him. We went out with some of his friends. HIS FRIENDS. They're a rather interesting bunch... Had lots of fun with them.

Didn't actually talk much but now I am his "apparently existent" girlfriend, Vixen Goh. Totally enjoyed listening to them talk...

Can't seem to stop crying. Why do we have to say goodbye? I don't want to. I know it's only two weeks but fcuk it, 2 weeks is a hell of a long time. I would've prolly dehydrated myself crying by the end of those two weeks.

I wanted to actually have some time with him before he leaves but as expected, he's currently fully booked. *sigh* MLIS. *sigh* Finally stopped crying. I'm gonna miss him so much I can't even find any words in the dictionary that can even come close to describing it. *sigh*