Tuesday, December 29, 2009 ~ 12:49 AM
my sweetest mistake.
IT'S MORNING.
bleh.
well gonna go to work later~!!
YAY!!
i love going to work coz of....
then from january onwards i'll be working in sentosa under asri and ... will be there too~!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
hehehehehehe.
dunnoe why but i'm happy today.
nothing good happened.
went to different places yesterday.
was soooo tired coz i was having a flu and i lost my voice again.
*sigh*
well talking to my aunty/cousin right now.
coooooool.
*sigh*
i'm going nuts.
shoutout: FLY ME OFF TO WHERE YOU ARE.
Thursday, December 24, 2009 ~ 6:49 PM
my sweetest mistake.
well currently in the kitchen trying to whip up a scrumptious Christmas dinner.
so far every thing's going well.
SUPER PUMPED.
so far, finished making the carbonara and the "omelette that leaves you wanting more."
lol.
super thankful to all those people who uploaded recipes man.
heheh.
wee~!!!
i don't know why i was emoing ystd but i feel so happy today,
then tomorrow i'm gonna go for the youth stayover.
confirm won't sleep one.
LOLLER.
shoutout: FA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA.
~ 12:45 AM
my sweetest mistake.
i feel so freaking angry.
SOME PEOPLE ARE SERIOUSLY INSENSITIVELY DENSE.
so irritated.
SO IRRITATED.
FREAKING IRRITATED.
*sigh*
who was i kidding?
i was only deluding myself, thinking that this Christmas would be better than the rest.
LAST CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEARS SUCKED, WHY DID I THINK THIS YEAR WON'T BE THE SAME?
i can't help but grimace at the ironical situation i've put myself in.
bleh.
STOP BULLSHITTING ME OK.
i know you don't care.
stop your moronic nonsense.
shoutout: THANKS TO YOU, MY CHRISTMAS SUCKS. HAPPY?
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ~ 7:09 PM
my sweetest mistake.
saw this on facebook.
cool.
43 things girls wishes their boyfriends knew:
#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.
#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.
#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.
#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.
#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.
#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.
#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.
#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.
#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.
#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
#13 When she's scared, protect her.
#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.
#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
#17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.
#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.
#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.
#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
#25 Don't let her have the last word.
#26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.
#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.
#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.
#29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.
#30 When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she'll still remember it.
#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
#33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
#34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.
#35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
#37 Let her into your world.
#38 Let her wear your clothes.
#39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
#40 Let her know she's important.
#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.
#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"
#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too
*sigh*
well, the coloured ones are the ones i truly wished he knew.
*sigh*
IF ONLY LIFE WAS EASIER.
but then again, men aren't mind readers so they can't really understand why females are hooked up on emotions unlike men who can separate emotions from other things.
bleh.
shoutout: IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS. GONNA BREAK MY HEART?
Monday, December 21, 2009 ~ 11:25 PM
my sweetest mistake.
Constant emoing has done nothing but make me dig a deeper hole for me to emo in.
SERIOUSLY MAN.
well nothing much happened today.
didn't talk to people so blah blah.
lazed around and listened to music.
KEPT PLAYING SHINee'S "RING DING DONG".
it's such a nice song.
*sigh*
well, planning to go to tampines mall tomorrow to pay my phone bill.
*sigh*
christmas is almost here. not like it matters to me.
I SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY LOATHE CHRISTMAS.
the days before the actual day and the days after it brings nothing but solitude and heartache to me.
*sigh*
super duper bored.
*sigh*
ATTENTION TO PEOPLE: I CAN STILL RECEIVE YOUR CALLS YA KNOW. SO IF YA NEED ANYTHING, JUST CALL ME.
not like anybody actually wants to communicate with me.
*sigh*
shoutout: I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY ANYMORE.
~ 2:01 AM
my sweetest mistake.
HOW LONG WILL IT BE TILL MY LONELINESS COMPLETELY CONSUMES ME?
okay yeah, emo-ness taking over as usual.
it's the wee hours in the morning as always.
i hate it whenever i can't fall asleep because i'm thinking about things i shouldn't even be thinking about.
it's like totally pointless to even consider brooding about this kind of stuff.
*sigh*
a vitriolic statement is that i'm here thinking about him, crying my heart out every night while he's there thinking about something else.
*sigh*
hell, why am i even complaining?
i'm not exactly in the right position to complain.
after all, i've got some skeletons i've kept hidden in this closet of mine.
shoutout: SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME.
Sunday, December 20, 2009 ~ 8:41 PM
my sweetest mistake.
WEE~!
i had this super super super cool dream about raymond last night.
hehehehehe
shan't say it but IT WAS SUPER NICE.
hehehe
well, didn't go to youth as usual.
was too shagged to get up from my bed.
haven't heard from people in a long time.
oh yeah, i came home yesterday and saw dozens of mail from polytechnics for me.
only opened the one from temasek poly.
decided to take product design as my first choice for a course.
WEEEEE~
if i don't get it i'll continue to strive to go for leisure and hotel management.
HEHEHE.
i'll make raymond one of my employees.
kekeke.
well things have been really really fun these past few days.
went to grace's chalet last 16th.
had sooooooo much fun!
BECAME MARRIED TO SETHO DURING THE CHALET.
and my fellow concubines are wayne, christian and jerold.
hahaha!
BROTHERHOOD TO THE EXTREME!
hehehe....
shoutout: IT STARTED OUT AS A FEELING.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ~ 2:06 PM
my sweetest mistake.
I AM SO FREAKING BORED~
well, i don't have work today so currently slacking at home.
-.-
still having some major allergy outbreak.
*sigh*
i told myself that i'd clean my room today but looking at all the mess, i doubt i'll be able to do it.
i don't even have a clue where to start.
hehehe.
there's like nothing to watch on tv...
nothing to do...
nowhere to go...
no one to go out with.
*BIG sigh*
well work yesterday was pretty fun.
got partnered up with ho ming, ying ting, and vyennus.
SUPER COOL PEOPLE MAN!!
we were laughing throughout the whole dinner.
me and ying ting swooned over the groom's kindness to his bride.
we were like, "I WISH MY HUSBAND WILL BE LIKE THAT~~~~!"
then there was this cute little girl in one table.
i was going to refill her drink so obviously i had to take her cup then she was like, "EH!!! WHY YOU TAKE MY CUP?????"
then played around with her for a bit...
SHE WAS SOOOOOOO ADORABLE~!!
she was like, "jie jie, my water got something inside. can please change?"
WAS SERIOUSLY SO HEART-SMITTEN!!
super fun!
wee~!!!
i still wish to see dear but yeah, circumstances seem to disallow it.
shoutout: TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.
Monday, December 14, 2009 ~ 1:27 PM
my sweetest mistake.
I MISS YOU.
yes i do.
do you?
i know you do.
well he went to desaru yesterday.
*sigh*
i wish he'd stay in singapore. -.-
currently taking time to relax before going to work.
*sigh*
I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS YOU.
shoutout: SERIOUSLY.
Sunday, December 13, 2009 ~ 1:30 AM
my sweetest mistake.
who am i trying to bullshit?
i'm not all that invulnerable.
FUCK.
yeah, i haven't said nor typed that word in ages.
work is as tiring as always.
my life at home sucks,
friendships suck,
all my relationships are going downhill.
THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL SO INSIGNIFICANT IN JUST 3 MESSAGES.
fucking hell man.
i'm so frustrated at everything.
in just a matter of 10 minutes, you were able to take away all the happiness i had in me during camp.
in just a matter of 20 minutes, you were able to make me regret ever being happy.
THANKS.
shoutout: AREN'T YOU HAPPY? YOU'RE GETTING WHAT YOU WANTED. JUST LIKE BEFORE.
Friday, December 11, 2009 ~ 1:31 AM
my sweetest mistake.
YAY I'M BACK!!!
didn't blog for like a long time coz went for church camp!!!
yay!!!
super awesome man!
WE MADE HISTORY!
NEW MOVIE RECORD: 25.
FIRST EVER GIRL TAU-POK DONE!
MADE A THOUSAND WATER BOMBS IN 5 HOURS!!!
super super fun man!
although there was also that weird incident with tung seng but i really don't want to relieve all the goosebumps experienced.
so yup.
seriously enjoyed myself.
twas so right man.
seriously needed the relaxation from all the screw-ups and blah i've experienced with everybody.
then i had this weird dream that i was in love with this super cute dog-man guy named MASABI.
weird.
anyway came home from work and it was super super fun!!!
after that was quite irritating.
well don't really want to think about it.
THE PERSON KNOWS WHO HE IS.
well he's back from bali. wee.
he went to bali to golf and he came back to golf again.
*sigh*
nevermind. forget it.
he likes golf what can i do?
*sigh*
this seriously bums me out.
MAYBE I'LL GO DRINK AGAIN.
i'm back to my old habits of drinks and cigars.
thanks to someone.
shoutout: HEY MY LIFE IS SO SCREWED UP, ANY SCREWING UP YOU DO TO ME WON'T MAKE MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 ~ 1:06 AM
my sweetest mistake.
here i am again with prolonged insomnia.
well i didn't go to work today coz it's my day off.
hahaha.
gonna work on thursday then after that, i won't be working till next wednesday.
I'VE GOT CAMP!
wee.
so freaking bored man.
there's seriously nothing to do.
i want to go out with people, but people are not free.
when people want to go out with me, i'm either too tired or i'm working.
WTF.
work has been tiring yet seriously fun.
meeting some seriously nice people, some not-so-nice, and some that i don't even want to talk about.
haha...
i'm trying to keep myself occupied so that i won't think about dear leaving for bali.
really don't want to think about it.
well for now, it's all just hellos and goodbyes and one word replies.
*sigh*
this is the reason why i need to always be moving or something.
if ever i am given the time to think, i'd immediately shut down and emo.
*sigh*
shoutout: HOW COULD I LEARN TO LIVE WONDERING WHAT IF?
