Tuesday, September 29, 2009 ~ 11:01 AM
my sweetest mistake.
i just finished my prelims so there's no school today.
honestly, i just woke up. hahaha.
PIG RIGHT?
gawd my eyes are so sore.
i literally cried myself to sleep.
haaaa.
so much shit has been happening.
*sigh*
been reading all my past years diaries...
can't believe i brought it here...
what's the point of relieving all the pain of all those years?
my first love, my first heartbreak... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i used to believe that babies just popped out from people once a girl and a guy hugged.
i used to believe that if i wished hard enough, all my troubles would go away.
i used to believe that life was a fairytale... that if i was good enough, someone would take me away.
it was all wishes and what ifs... even then my head was in the clouds.
*sigh*
with a blink of an eye, my life seemed to revolve around death.
this is the first time i'm admitting this but yes, i'm one of those people who cut themselves.
i don't do it just for the sake of getting pity from other people.
it's more like a stress- relief thing.
anyway, i always thought that if i cut hard enough, somebody would tell me to stop.
that all i was waiting for.
somebody to tell me to stop.
haa.... maybe i am as dramatic as he says.
*sigh*
shoutout: I CALL OUT YOUR NAME BECAUSE I WANT TO HEAR YOU SAY MINE.
Friday, September 11, 2009 ~ 6:40 PM
my sweetest mistake.
haven't updated in nearly a month...
well it's day 2 of me being alone here in singapore while HE's overseas...
all i've been doing in watch re-runs of Family Outing.
I HAVE OFFICIALLY REKINDLED MY LOVE FOR KIM SOORO AND LEE CHUN HEE!
ok sooro's old but he's pretty hot for an 39- yr old man.
anyway, i guess the reason why i like sooro so much is because he reminds me so much of HIM coz sooro's direct and funny.
PEOPLE WHO REMIND ME OF MY DEAR!
. kim sooro-sshi
. kim tae woo (everytime i hear him sing, it reminds me of dear)
. yesung and kang-in of super junior (whenever i see them, dear comes to mind)
. kang hodong (whenever he smiles IT'S EXACTLY LIKE DEAR'S)
there's so much more but when i think about them, names escape me.
AND NO, IT'S NOT ONLY KOREANS WHO REMIND ME OF HIM.
*sigh*
i'm so bored right now.
i can't wait for sunday.
hmmmm... talk about what?
well i have officially decided to severe ties with samantha.
she's on good terms with sudhanshi again meaning i've been chucked off to one side, forgotten and all.
SO MUCH FOR FRIENDSHIP!!
i feel weird these days.
possibly coz i have restrained myself from being so vulgar.
even my mom was surprised.
she was like, "EH! WHY ARE YOU SO POLITE ALL OF THE SUDDEN?!"
-.-
*sigh*
I SERIOUSLY WISH THAT LIFE WOULD TAKE THE EBB OUT OF ME.
GAHHHHHh~!!!
i don't know what to type anymore!!!
I WANT TO BE WITH HIM!!!!!!
hahah...
the other day i had like this weird dream where me and him went somewhere, just by ourselves and we had like a holiday together.
NO WORRIES, JUST US.
ahhh... how i wish it'd come true.
not so much the holiday but at least another date i mean.
(TT^TT)
shoutout: COME BACK!! IT'S SO EMPTY WITHOUT YOU!
