Wednesday, July 15, 2009 ~ 4:11 PM
my sweetest mistake.
MY LIFE IS SERIOUSLY SPINNING OUT OF PROPORTIONS.well two more papers left and it's the subjects that i
LOATHE the most:
AMATHS AND BIO.
*sigh*
I'VE BEEN SO MAD AT HIM FOR SO LONG YET HE STILL HAS NO IDEA.*sigh*
i seriously don't know what i'm gonna do...
HONESTLY I'VE CHANGED BOYFRIENDS SO MANY TIMES THAT THERE'S THIS CERTAIN NUMBNESS IN MY HEART.
with all the guys before, i ALWAYS ALWAYS expected them to try their best to make me happy.
I ALWAYS EXPECTED THEM TO FULFILL MY DEMANDS.
but now... I JUST FEEL LIKE PROTECTING HIM.
i don't know what from though...
I WANT TO GIVE HIM HAPPINESS THAT I KNOW I CAN GIVE HIM.though it may not seem like it, he's more mature than me.
HE KNOWS SO MUCH MORE THAN ME IN ASPECTS MORE THAN ONE.
it was probably stupid of me to think i can protect him when i can't even protect myself.
*sigh*
I WISH I HAD THE COURAGE TO TELL YOU ALL THE THINGS I WANT TO SAY.ALL THE FRUSTATIONS BUNDLED UP IN ME.
I MAY SMILE MOST OF THE TIME BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M NOT HURT BY YOU.
i've heard so many things.
shoutout:
FEELING MYSELF SUFFOCATING.
