due to the fact that i cannot sleep, i decided to blog.

I WENT TO GDOP (Global Day of Prayer) TODAY WITH G4C!!!!

super cool man!!!

1st time i've been so pumped while praising the Lord.

woohooo.

well i'm currently bored so i decided to continue on with my story yesterday about how DANAH LEE HUI YANG tried to flirt with TAN CHUAN SIN.

SCENE!! START!!

DANAH: *talking to chuan sin about the stars*
ME: *waving my hand a danah's face* eh buncha... quiet already lah.
DANAH: excuse me? CAN'T YOU SEE I'M FLIRTING HERE?!
(jarah, benson, jeco and i laugh)
ME: wah... never ask permission from mama.
DANAH: oh yeah... can i?
ME: go.
JECO: eh daughter!! CANNOT FLIRT YOU KNOW!! later i don't give you money for your tuition fee.
DANAH: EH PLEASE LAH! you don't give me money you know!
JECO: ok, i give you $20.
DANAH: ha?!?! really!
JECO: *hands danah 20 CENTS* nahh.
DANAH: wahhhhhh!! *to chuan sin* eh brother!! i got $20 you know!!!
(4 of us laugh again)
ME: eh buncha... don't disturb chuan sin lahhh. tired already
DANAH: ok lahhh. *sits still*
ME: *to chuan sin* eh! you owe me one ok!?
CHUAN SIN: okok. THANK YOUUUU!!!

hence, the end of danah's failed flirting scene.

lol.

POOR BUNCHA.

NEVERMIND! MAMA AND STEP-DADDY STILL LOVE YA!!!

this is my list of children to my so called husbands:

ZHI HAN AND GRACE AND YU XIAN- NICKLAUS
DANAH-YIN CHIA

yeah...

grace said i should make keith my son with jeco.

TANNED CHINESE!! mixture of me and sweetheart together.

blahhh.

really bored.

shoutout: TWO LOVERS. ONE HEART BEAT.

WOO!! MY BLOG IS SERIOUSLY FULL OF DUST NOW.

couldn't blog that much for the past week coz there was mother tongue intensive... NOT THAT IT HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME BECAUSE I DON'T TAKE MOTHER TONGUE.

lol.

i was just trying to finish at least half of my mountains of homework piled up for the june hollidays.

well nothing much really happened for the whole week.

YESTERDAY WAS OUR FIRST MONTH!!!

we didn't really give each other anything coz yeah... FLAT BROKE.

so anyway, our school made all the sec 4s and 5s to watch this play entitled THE MAGIC FLUTE yesterday.

and it was at night so was quite happy coz i can spend more time with my sweetheart.

so basically, grace went to my house then we "prettied" ourselves.

SHE EVEN CURLED MY HAIR!!! i'll probably post the pic on facebook.

then blah blah went to school again with benson and jarah

somemore blah blahs went to the toilet and then when we walked back to the canteen and THEN!!! BENSON AND MY SWEETHEART POPPED OUT!!

then he was like, " EHHHH!!" then i was like, "huh?" then grace was like, "EH! she looks very pretty right?! thanks to me!!!"

and you know what he did? HE SCOLDED GRACE.

so was kind of down because of that.

then blah blah blah.

JECO: EH JEM!
ME: aye?
JECO: you want to go out later afterwards?
ME: anything.
JECO: (to somebody) AHHH! what kind of boyfriend am i?!?! i forgot to buy something!!!

then he smsed me that we may go out on sunday.

so was emoing with jarah on the bus coz both our boyfriedns were in another bus.

jarah wanted to seat with benson during the play so i SUGGESTED that she tell benson to make the person sitting next to him exchange seats with jeco then jeco switch places with jarah.

SURPRISINGLY THAT'S WHAT THEY DID!!!

so yeah he was sitting beside me and blah.

didn't really talk much coz i wasn't in a talking mood anymore then of course he noticed it and kept asking what was wrong.

this scenes only include me emoing and blah so let's fast forward shall we??

OK GAME!

scene: IN THE BUS SITTING BESIDE JARAH.

so i seriously wanted to cry for some reason i do not want to say when out of nowhere, benson and him came inside our bus!

so of course, he sat beside me.

JECO: why are you so sad?
ME: huh? who said i was sad?
JECO: are you sad coz your dad left already?
ME:(sarcastically) no. i'm already used to it.

so i didn't really want to stay so sad anymore so i put my arm around his then just cuddled myself against him.

SURPRISINGLY, HE RESPONDED IN THE SAME WAY!

then i rested my head on his shoulder and his hand kind of cupped my face.

WOOOOOO!! WE SERIOUSLY HAD OUR MOMENT THERE!!

fast forward again!!

so after jarah and benson's attempt to make out in public failed and them sitting at another couple seat and danah's failed attempt to flirt with chuan sin, my sweetheart and i just kept staring out the window like idiots.

i felt guilty coz if only i wasn't having such odd mood swings, then maybe we could've cuddled like that for a long time now.

so yeah i looked at him then gave him a peck of the cheek and whispered, "happy one month" then tried to hide my obvious blush.

just as the bus was about to curve in to sennet road, he kissed me twice- once on the cheek and a light, soft kiss on the lips!!!

so we went down from the bus then headed towards the bus stop.

ONE MORE SUPRISE: he was ok with us being lovey dovey in public!

i mean coz we're kinda keeping it low profile at the moment.

so quite alot of people were shocked to see us holding hands.

GRACE: (looks to her left and right and says to nizam) EH NIZAM!! you see ah, to my left (me and jeco) they're cuddling each other, then to my right (jarah and beson) they're also doing the same!! COME NIZAM!! LET ME TOUCH YOU!!!

so in the bus, i sat beside him again then grace was all alone so i told her to flirt with the old, balding man in front of her.

then i put my arm around his again and locked my fingers to his and he also did the same.

THIS DAY WAS SERIOUSLY FULL OF SURPRISES FOR ME!

then i fell asleep on his shoulder and him at the top of my head.

so at the interchange, we ate ice cream for a while then gave him another peck at the cheek before running towards the bus.

I DON'T REALLY DO THIS KIND OF THING ALOT SO I BLUSH EXCESSIVELY WHEN DOING SO.

so yeah...

smsed him and laughed with grace before we both fell asleep.

woohoo!

so yup yup!!! that's how i spent my first month with my sweetheart.

what i liked about it was it felt so surreal to feel his warmth through his shirt and to feel his heartbeat and know that it's beating to the same rhythm as mine.

AND HE SMELT SOOOOOOO SEDUCTIVE BECAUSE OF HIS COLOGNE!!!

hehehe.

shoutout: EVEN IF YOU HAVE NO MORE CHARM, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

it hurts.

THE DISTANCE BETWEEN US HURTS.

i wanted to hold your hand and never let it go.

i wanted to be lost in the deepness of your eyes.

yet i could never catch up to you.

in the end i could only walk behind you, seeing nothing but your cold back.

you turn back and ask me why i'm going further away from you.

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LONGED TO CRY IN YOUR ARMS.

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LONGED TO TRAP MYSELF IN YOU.

i smiled and said i wasn't distancing myself from you.

i wanted to close the distance between us.

but whenever i do, the pain seemed to grow.

i wanted to stop time just to be with you.

i had nothing left but your sad smile, and your cold back.

How will you answer someone in the following situations given?


WHAT IF SOMEONE INSULTS YOU AND TELLS YOU THIS:

1. Ang arte mo!
: mas maarte ka. PUTA

2. Mas matalino naman ako sayo.
: eh ano ngayon?

3. Crush ako ng ex mo.
: ok lng yan. libreng mag-illusion

4. Am bobo mo pala sa History!
: wish mo lang.

5. Bilisan mo naman!
: pano ko bibilis?! ang bagall mong maglakad!!

6. Ang sungit mo!
: kasi kausap kita!

7. Gusto mo ng away?
: bakit? nanghahamon ka?

8. Takot ka ata sakin eh?
: lahat nman ng taong makakita ng mukha mo matatakot eh!

9. Mas mahal niya ko!
: once again, WISH MO LANG.

10. Ambababa naman ng grades mo!
: mas mababa naman sayo!

WHAT IF SINABI SAYO ITO NG CRUSH MO?

1. Crush kita.
: yaan mo. di ka lng nagiisa.

2. Di kita mahal.
: ano naman ngaun?

3. Mahal na kita.
: GOOD BOY!

4. Pakopya naman ng assignment.
: wait lang ah! kokopya muna ko.

5. Crush ko yung friend mo.
: ba't sakin mo sinasabi?

6. Pwede patabi sa upuan mo?
: siguraduhin mo lang na walang nakaupo!

7. Cute mo magsmile.
: SO I'VE HEARD.

KAPAG PARENTS MO ANG NAGSABI SAYO NITO?

1. Umuwi ka ng maaga.
: bakit? nasa bahay ka na ba?

2. Magaling ka pala sumayaw?
: GENES YAN!

3. Hindi ka pwedeng pumasok sa klase.
: ano ka? hilo?

4. Bawal ka mag girlfriend/boyfriend.
: sorry late ka na. meron na eh.

5. Bakit ba mainit ulo mo?
: KAUSAP KASI KITA!

6. Bakit ngayon ka lang?
: eh ngayon lng dumating ung taxi eh.

7. Bakit ang baba ng grades mo?
: kasi hindi mataas.

behold the majestic return of the hungry person!!!

*drum roll*

ok yeah i know. LAME.

I'M OLD. I'M ALL ABOUT LAMENESS.

truthfully i'm not too sure myself why i suddenly wanted to blog.

nothing happened. WELL NOTHING YET.

*sigh*

just been thinking of HIM the whole day probably.

alot of people are asking me where he is...

not sure whether they know about us or they're just being pathetic.

anyway, nothing much to say.

thinking about alot of things right now.

ABOUT OUR CROSS COUNTRY. during the cross country.

I HAVE NEVER EVER NOTICED HIM FOR THE MAN HE IS UNTIL NOW.

most of the people we know think of us as brother and sister.

which is somewhat true coz we whack each other like nobody's business.

but now, we begin to notice each other's existence.

HE'S SUCH A BIG PERVERT YET I LIKE HIM FOR THAT.

i always look forward to the end of my classes when i walk uphill with him because that's probably the only time we're alone with each other.

it's funny coz i would always wish that time would stop to that moment where our eyes would meet and we'd just smile at each other and laugh like we're the last people on earth.

it sounds cheesy i know.

i know that i've fallen in and out of love alot of times before.

i know that i change boyfriends almost as often as i change clothes.

that's why i'm not saying that i'm in love.

BUT I CAN'T DENY THE FACT THAT I AM FALLING.

I JUST HOPE THAT THIS TIME, IT'S FOR REAL.

shoutout: FORGOTTEN SNOW DROP.

to the people who fucking stole my money, I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE.

so yeah. MY MONEY GOT STOLEN TODAY. fuckers.

today pretty much sucked as well.

yesterday also.

and the day before that,

AND THE DAY BEFORE THAT.

*sigh*

TO SUM IT ALL UP, MY WHOLE WEEK SUCKED.

*sigh*

I SO WANT TO JUST SLEEP AND NEVER OPEN MY EYES AGAIN

why do you act so cold towards me?

i didn't do anything wrong.

i did what you want me to do.

*sigh*

shoutout: WAITING TO DIE.

as always today was another tiring day.

well yesterday went out with eric.

we were supposed to study in the library but there was no room for us so we went to mcdonald's to study.

WE SAW SETHO, ASYRAF, JERVIS AND DILLON.

when eric was buying sth:

ASYRAF: EH YOUR PERVERT AH?
ME: NO LAH. NOT MY PERVERT. (pause) THIS ONE NORMAL PERVERT LAH.

heheh.

so we studied there until 4++.

quite fun quite fun.

so today nothing much happened.

THE USUAL STUPOR AND SHIT.

*sigh*

today seems to prove that only a couple of people truly know me.

IF YOU PEOPLE WERE REALLY MY FRIENDS YOU WOULDN'T BE ASKING WHAT HAPPENED TO MY ARM BUT WHY IT HAPPENED.

bleh.

well there's not much to say really.

i'm too depressed to type.

shoutout: I'M SO READY TO DIE.

FINALLY IT'S FRIDAY!

been so tired this week.

had so many things to be passed up.

all in all it was worth all the effort.

blah.

well nothing much has been happening as always.

school wise, it's been fun.

been talking to eric alot. PUNCHING HIM TOO FOR TOUCHING ME.

then chatted with sammie awhile ago after school about our queer class.

MOSTLY ABOUT JIN HYEOK.

haha.

then went home with my sweetie.

YESTERDAY ALSO!!

he sent me home also so was quite happy.

home-wise, i don't really have anything to say coz once i get home i fall asleep already to avoid talking to my family.

WHO KNOWS WHAT I MIGHT SAY TO THEM WHEN I'M AT MY MOST VULNERABLE.

so yeah.

BASICALLY IT'S THE SAME OLD SAME OLD ROUTINE I HAVE EVERYDAY.

so bored.

i want to go cycling with zhi han tomo.

but then---- AH NEVERMIND!!

STUPID IDEA.

bleh.

i want to drown myself in the sea and hopefully it will carry me somewhere where my hopes and dreams lie.

shoutout: TRIAL PERIOD.

wee.

it's wednesday.

didn't go to school today coz it was MT exam.

was like freaking bored the whole day.

anyway been talking to my sweetheart alot.

weeee.

LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!!

i have a new son now!!

YU XIAN aka MINI MINI TEDDY BEAR.

i have my series of bears i tell you!!

grace- mini mini mini teddy bear
yu xian- mini mini teddy bear
zhi han- mini teddy bear
yi zhong- teddy bear
nicklaus- bear
zi yao- BEAR

hehehe.

there's not much to do here.

currently an invalid coz i'm sick

kind of contracted the flu from my bro.

HE'S WELL NOW AND I CAUGHT THE BUG.

bleh.

so yeah.

ZHI HAN WAS SCOLDING ME THE WHOLE DAY COZ I WAS ONLINE WHEN I'M SICK.

nothing to do what.

well my day wasn't as lugubrious as usual.

blah blah same old boring shit really.

*sigh*

i want to go to school tomorrow but i also don't want to go for english lesson.

so freaking random really.

INTEGRATION IS QUITE FUN. for now.

i may be changing my mind once we get to integration of trigonometry.

wooo.

I HATE THAT SINE, COSINE, TANGENT SHIT.

shoutout: OUR SURREPTITIOUS KISS.

wee. it's me again.

well once again, life has been all but interesting.

SPENDING MY DAYS IN BORING HELL.

went to church today as usual.

didn't stay for long coz i wasn't really feeling my usual cheery self.

not that anybody noticed i left.

oh yeah! BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SETHO!!

omg!! you're sixteen now woman!!! ahem. MAN!

also, ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AZHAR!!

blah.

nothing much has been happening really.

HOME IS JUST AS MUCH OF A HELL TO ME THAN ANYTHING ELSE.

thank goodness i have MR ALFRED TANG to talk to when i'm at home.

wehehehe.

GAWD. was i ever so unlucky to be born in a family that's bound to break as easily as now??

i wish there was someone who i could just complain to without being judged...

shoutout: JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SEE THE WOUND DOENS'T MEAN IT AIN'T HURTING.

well it's been another week since i last posted.

first of all. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YUICHI, YAMONE, AND JUSTUS!!!

bleh.

well nothing much happened the whole week.

mr tan didn't come to school until yesterday coz his kids were sick so yeah.

MR TAN'S FANS WERE CAUSING AN UPROAR. lol

zhi han, grace and jeco went to my house this wednesday then we just did some funny funny stuff.

grace wanted sok san to come next time.

GRACE: NEXT TIME BRING SOK SAN!!
JECO: (to grace) YEAH! THEN YOU TAKE SOK SAN, I'LL TAKE JEM!

wtf...

bleh.

well alot of things are happening in my life right now.

my parents are still arguing by the way, and i'm the one who gets to be the one they bring out their frustrations to.

everybody's suffering form PMS now.

keep shouting at me and all that shit.

I JUST WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE QUIET AND JUST TALK TO SOMEBODY.

i've already lost faith in everything.

i've lost trust in myself.

i don't know what to do anymore.

I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I'VE ALREADY TRIED TO KILL MYSELF JUST TO MAKE MY PARENT'S BURDEN LIGHTER.

i'm the cause of their problems so i should just be the one to disappear.

there's not much i can do anymore.

MY FAMILY'S THE FIRST THING TO FALL APART IN MY LIFE.

i want to be where he is...

i'm only happy when he's around.

but i don't even know how long this happiness will last or even if this happiness is even real.

I'M LOSING CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

shoutout: DON'T MAKE ME FALL FOR YOU IF YOU'RE ONLY GONNA BREAK MY HEART.

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