Sunday, April 5, 2009 ~ 1:33 AM
my sweetest mistake.
i beginning to lose focus of what's seriously important to me.ok i'm back to lamenting with myself.
I'M SELF-INDULGENT WHAT CAN I DO?*sigh*
basically all i thought about most of the week was him.
WHAT WE WERE, WHAT WE ARE, WHAT WE COULD HAVE BEEN AND WHAT WE CAN NEVER BE.the incredulity and appaling irreversibility of what is happening to me cripples me with a pain that often times i choose not to speak at all.haa.
but then again we do share some commonality among us.
IT'S JUST PURELY PHYSICAL. well for him mostly.
that moment, that day, fills my heart with pure agony yet i can't seem to restrain myself from reliving it over and over again.
haa. just the thought of finally being able to kiss the one i always wanted seems like an accomplishment to me.
I HAVE PICTURED THAT MOMENT- HELL, FANTASIZED IS A MORE APPROPRIATE WORD- FANTASIZED ABOUT THAT MOMENT FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG.
but when it did happen, DAMN.
I HAVE NEVER EVER TASTED SUCH BITTERSWEET KISSES BEFORE.
haa.
WE WERE LOST IN THAT FURY OF PASSION.*sigh*
he's just another scar i choose to keep open.shoutout:
IT'S SO CRUEL THE WAY ONE IS SO HEALTHY, SO ALIVE, SO SEEMINGLY UNDESTRUCTABLE WHEN YOUR LIFE HAD BEEN SO EASILY AND SO RANDOMLY SEVERED.
