Humanimal. =]

Sunday, March 29, 2009 ~ 4:12 PM

my sweetest mistake.

yeah.

slacking at home now still regardless of mountains of homework that needs to be done.

i shall conquer it later. WAHAHAHA

well first off wanna pray for FENNY!!! *holly's dog*

she's sick so yeah... I LOVE THAT DOG OK?! not as much as holly though.

HOPE YA GET WELL SOON GIRL!

next is what ah??

oh yesterday was annual awards day and totally screwed up.

my voice sounded so hoarse so i don't think i did fairly well.

it passed by smoothly though.

had a few mistakes here and there... I ACCIDENTALLY INTRO BAND AS "GATE" INSTEAD OF "GREAT".

fortunately nobody noticed.

wahaha.

today went to church quite early coz had our final practice for the service worship.

yeah!!!

then blah blah blah.

played guitar as always.

so second serviced passed by but i talked mostly to grace...

anyway was quite fun coz we kept teasing "papa" tim and kept calling him a SMORT.

hahah.

ACTUALLY EUGENE SHOULD BE THE ONE WE CALL A SMORT.

then went home and watched tv.

really bored now.

tomorrow i still need to bring my gown and everything to school coz we're going to vch to practice.

shoutout: YOU TURNED INTO THE ASS I KNEW YOU TO BE.

Thursday, March 26, 2009 ~ 8:09 PM

my sweetest mistake.

my existence seems oblivious to everybody around.

they pass by me as if i'm not there.

i scream and shout yet my cries do not reach their ears.

i cry out yet my tears do not touch their hearts.

i look around, stumbling, looking for- possibly, salvation from the hell i trapped myself into.

it never occurred to me that i could still make the wrong choices which can still hurt me.

i would've held on to my faith but i chose not to.

he then approached me and i looked into his eyes, hoping to see my reflection in them yet all i could see was the emptiness i had in me.

his tears fell like a crying child yet he never faltered to look at me.

i held on to him, clinging for life.

he flinched at my touch, his tears burning me in turn yet i had no urge to let go of him.

he smiled me a sad smile and walked away.

i ran desperately after him, shouting his name even though it hurts.

but just like everyone else, he could not- and will not, hear me.

my feet bled as i ran after him, scathed by the hard ground.

my heart pounding as eyes looked at me menacingly.

i stopped and realized what i couldn't before.

NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I CAN NEVER CATCH UP TO HIM.

i fell to the ground, pain piercing my heart.

i shouted to the heavens yet even they won't open their gates to me.

too many mistakes were made.

too many things lost.

and as i gasped my last breath, thoughts of his still flooded my mind

alas, i failed to be human.

shoutout: WHAT ONCE WAS WHOLE, FALLS INTO PIECES.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ~ 6:01 PM

my sweetest mistake.

haaaa...

haven't updated in quite a while...

i unfortunately didn't have the time to update due to MY MOUNTAIN OF HOMEWORK FROM MR TAN. grrrrr.

HOLIDAYS MY ASS.

so back in school again and things are really intense coz this saturday is our annual awards day so everybody's abit high-maintainance this week.

everybody's like rats scurvying here and there.

the positive thing is that we get to skip sme of our lessons due for practice.

I GET TO SKIP ALOT OF LESSON COZ I'M THE EMCEE. wahahaha.

but then again, because of all this talking and singing again and again, i'm beginning to lose my voice.

it's a concern for me coz i'm kind of worried that i won't be able to participate in SYF.

AS MUCH AS I HATE CHOIR, I STILL WANT CCA POINTS.

seriously tired and sick.

MR TAN PASSED ME HIS COLD.

haiyah. hopefully i can find some time to get some rest and get well.

I SERIOUSLY CANNOT AFFORD TO MISS ONE DAY OF SCHOOL.

haaa...

shoutout: NOBODY CAN STOP US.

Thursday, March 19, 2009 ~ 6:46 PM

my sweetest mistake.

ok... just came home from school a few hours ago...

dots man...

bleh...

talked to eric the whole day. wahaha.

bleh...

there's nothing to do now actually...

ok, truth be told i have a mountain of homework to conquer yet i have no urge to do so...

so bored...

been washing my hair alot of times today...

i think this is the 4th time i washed it...

it keeps drying up...

it's soft and smooth once minute and the next it starts to frizz up...

*SIGH* i'm gonna cut it soon...

hopefully i'd have the guts to cut it...

bleh.

anyway nothing much has been happening to me lately...

still sick though...

whatever... i've been sick since the beginning of the year....

i've had this stupid cold...

and to add fuel to the fire my throat's really sore and now my voice is kinda hoarse...

that's why i have to shout everytime...

jeez...

well yeah... there's nothing interesting going on in my life now...

everything's such a bore....

SNORE.

hopefully something will come up...

i want to go out!!!!!!!!!!

so freaking irritating...

whenever i want to go out, there's nobody free then whenever people ask me to go out with them, i'm not free.

i mean... WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK?!?!?!?!?!

bloody hell.

i feel so freaking angry and i don't bloody know why.

just feel sooooo angry and pissed and hurt and all those feelings...

AHHHHHH!

i'm like a walking bomb just waiting to explode.

shoutout: HELP ME. I'M A DANGER TO MYSELF.

Monday, March 16, 2009 ~ 9:34 AM

my sweetest mistake.

wahhh... just woke up.

well today is the start of my "should-be-holidays-but-is-so-totally-not"

ok! updates again with what happened these past few days that i didn't blog.

FRIDAY:

had annual awards day practice.

got my report book back. my marks were so-so...

SATURDAY:

went to church for practice for the following sundays' worship, 5th sunday's worship, 4th sunday's prayer and prep.

PLAYED CAPTAIN'S BALL!

and bloody hell, asyraf passed me the freakin ball full-force, so it hit my face full-force...

haiyoh.

then played some volleyball with shanice.

TO SHANICE!!

NO I DO NOT LIKE SETHO.

he's cute... but i don't like him- like him.

SUNDAY:

went to church as usual but unfortunately, didn't have lunch with the youth.

so went home and fell asleep.

spent my entire night crying over japanese movies.

haiyoh.

there's this one movie that really made me cry.

KOIZORA....

freaking sad.

i even dreamt of the lead actor and in the dream i was also crying. -.-

*sigh* it's so sad coz the moment that they can be together, the guy dies.

love seriously sucks...

anyway i really liked the movie and dammit...

IT'S THE FIRST TIME I EVER CRIED SO MUCH JUST FOR WATCHING A MOVIE.

haa. it's a nice story...

the actor's kinda cute. WEHEHE...

well just finished my e-learning assignments so i have nothing to do,

going to school at around 1-ish for choir.

bleh.

i don't even have time for myself this holidays.

*sigh*

shoutout: WERE YOU EVER REALLY HAPPY?

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 ~ 7:45 PM

my sweetest mistake.

well today was an ok day...

I THOUGHT TODAY WAS TUESDAY.

bleh. really blur nowadays.

well as usual, MR TAN IS THE REASON WHY I'M SO HAPPY EVERYDAY.

wahaha. I AM MR TAN'S NUMBER ONE FAN! *lol*

we always have our usual talk-back session for every lesson.

wahaha. TRY HARDER AH!

lol.

so today nothing much happened.

after e-maths lesson was bio so the bio students had to go to the lab.

i was walking with sammie then we saw mrs siva

ME: (smiling) G'afternoon!
MRS SIVA: (smiling) Hello dimples! (to sammie) samantha smile!
SAMMIE: (after mrs siva left) you know ah, during the four years i've been here in chai chee, ever teacher i meet keeps asking me to smile
ME: (seeing ms nur) hi ms nur! (smile)
MS NUR: (smiling) good afternoon jemimah.. (to sammie) eh samantha, SMILE!!!

hahah! damn funny man!

lol.

bio lesson was fun too.

somewhere around the end of the lesson we suddenly talked about IVF (in vitro fertilisation)

SAMMIE: eh mrs koh, how take out the sperm from the guys?
MRS KOH AND ME: that one easy lah!!!
ME: haha... you know ah, i have this uncle who cannot concieve before. so he went to the hospital with his wife then the doctor gave him a plastic beaker and said "nah. do you thing". THEY GAVE HIM FREE PORN ALSO!

wahaha. fun man!

then english lesson was also funny.

AZHAR: oh. my one got no photo.
MRS PEREIRA: are you chinese or malay?
AZHAR: malay lah.
MRS PEREIRA: i think you're a chinese boy stuck in a malay boy's body! only chinese used terms like "my one, lah, leh, lor, hor"

wahaha.

well technically that's all the fun things that happened today.

wehehe.

gonna do my english homework now!!!

shoutout: I'VE LOST ALL SENSE OF TIME.

Sunday, March 8, 2009 ~ 9:39 PM

my sweetest mistake.

so i'm gonna post some pics of the youth today.

not alot actually.

basically this is how we decide who prays. LAST ONE WHO DOES THE ACTION PRAYS.

hahaha!!! FIRST TIME SEE ICED LEMON TEA!

this is SETHO. he didn't even realize that i was taking a photo of him... HAIYOH.

this is us playing slapjack....

once again slapjack with all those people who went to rachel's house.

this photo is really really funny. THIS IS WHAT STUDENTS IN OUR YOUTH WHO ARE TAKING THEIR O'LEVELS THIS YEAR DO. play slapjack.

~ 6:55 PM

my sweetest mistake.

well today was uber fun man!

after church went to eat lunch with the youth as usual.

went to pizza hut eat. wahaha.

then after that walked around tampines mall for a while then decided to go to rachel's house.

we played taiti, then slapjack.

WAH. SETHO AH. HIS HAND CANNOT STOP SHAKING...

must get ready to slap.

so blah.

nothing much happened.

now doing my dna model number 3!

bleh.

TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN SCOLDING ME:

i don't really mind if you scold me.

by scolding me just proves that i have some things that other people do not like...

with those irritating traits, it just proves how human i am.

i make mistakes also.

so it's ok.

KEEP SCOLDING ME IF YOU WANT.

I'D JUST SMILE AT YOU AND SAY THANKS.

thanks coz by saying i'm a bitch or that kind of girl, it helps me change myself and become a better person.

THANKS AH THANKS.

i'm not angry... i just want to look at the positive side of things.

there's no point defending myself when people think i'm a bitch or whatever.

it just means that i'm showing people too much of my bad side.

so it's ok...

BUT GO EASY AH. I'M STILL HUMAN.

i can still be hurt by what you're saying.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009 ~ 8:50 PM

my sweetest mistake.

well here i am again...

haven't been posting... *i keep forgetting to*

so what has happened these past few days?

SATURDAY:

went to school for annual awards day practice...

totally screwed up coz i had a very bad sore throat so i pretty much screwed up the emceeing.

went home and fell asleep...

was supposed to go for practice for 5th sunday but i ended up not going coz i wasn't feeling well... *i was sick coz i didn't sleep enough for the whole week...*

then.. uh... i think i talked to nitipat, sammie and eric in msn...

SUNDAY:

went to church then afterwards hung out with the same youth gang...

talked about the east spring boys...

ate at swensen's coz of sweetie pie's 1 for 1 vouvher... WOOO! then nick treated me!

i feel so bad coz i feel like i'm mooching off him.. *SORRY!!*

went home, fell asleep on my bed then talked to nitipat and eric on msn again.

MONDAY:

failed my physics paper, just passed chemistry.

FUCK! I FAILED MY ENGLISH PAPER!

*sigh*

skipped choir... *made up some cocked up story*

sammie, eric and nitipat went to my house...

shan't stress on that again because SENSITIVE ISSUES ARE INCLUDED.

lol.

TODAY:

dots... nothing much happened...

went for bio lesson and a-maths and english...

*sigh*

damn fucked up...

yesterday was quite fun i guess...

alot of unforgettable things happened...

*sigh*

dunnoe what to type now...

oh yeah.! I PASSED MY A-MATHS CT!

wahhh. damn happy i tell you!

anyway been thinking alot about HIM lately...

*sigh* how can i not when he's always near me??

LOL.

my mind's in turmoil- ok maybe not exactly in turmoil...

everything's just a tad bit dysfunctional for me lately...

emotions and all mixed up...

well i just hope i'll get my thoughts sorted out soon...

shoutout: MAYBE I WAS STUPID FOR TELLING YOU GOODBYE.