Friday, January 23, 2009 ~ 3:53 PM
my sweetest mistake.
*sigh*
it's finally friday...
i won't go to school till wednesday.
*sigh*
oh yeah. my dad's coming home on tuesday...
wee...
this week has been the most tiring week i've had.
physically, mentally and emotionally.
my a-maths and physics test were in two consecutive days.
seriously didn't know which one i should've concentrated on.
fortunately it's already done.
i can't handle thinking anymore...well of course the reason for me being emotionally tired is because of yi zhong.
i still can't seem to let him go.we met at the stairs thursday morning.
he looked at me with- i don't know- sad eyes.
it pained me so much to see him look at me like that.i'm so tired.
i'm tired of crying myself to sleep.
i'm tired of waking up in the middle of the night and cry because just had another dream about him.
i want to get rid of the pain but i'm scared that by getting rid of it, i'll be erasing memories of him.tell me why it's so hard to forget?i really don't know what to do anymore...
it hurts to see him but i can't stop looking for him...
actually it's quite tiring to keep smiling.
ray told me the other day
"ALAM MO, PAREHO KAYO NI JARAH. PALAGI KAYONG NAKANGITI PERO ANG DAMI-DAMI NIYONG PROBLEMA. PALAGI KAYONG NAKANGITI PERO NASASAKTAN PALA KAYO." *you know, you and jarah are the same. you always keep smiling but you ahve a lot of problems. you always smile but you're actually hurting.*
i think that the only people who seriously care about me are tweet and poch.
*sigh*
wish i wasn't able to see or feel anything anymore...
everybody seems to hypocritic around me.
acting all nice around me.
FUCK YOU ALL.
just because i'm broken doesn't mean i'm dumb.
stop acting like you like me.
i know you hate me.
most of the people around me are really pissing me off.
FUCK OFF. LEAVE ME ALONE.let me break in peace.
i don't need all you hypocrites.
i only want him...shoutout:
I WILL END THIS.
