Saturday, December 27, 2008 ~ 10:48 PM
my sweetest mistake.
well
another crappy day has come and gone...went to a christmas party at pasir ris park today...
ate quite alot...
indulged myself in food
due to depression...then blah blah blah.
went to church for worship prac tomorrow.
then went home.
emoing right now.
feel like crap
who's insecure, has low self-esteem, and low confidence level.i wish that i won't be able to see anything again.
because
everytime i open my eyes, i see things that just makes the pain in my heart worse.he's not talking to me.
everybody doesn't care.
my mom doesn't even give a fuck about me.
i smile to hide the pain i feel even though i just want to break down and cry.
it's just so damn fucking painful.
it hurts to keep putting on a mask in front of everybody just so they won't see how much i'm hurting.i begin to do that particular thing i used to do...
good thing i have a new watch to hide it.
i don't want to do it but subconsciously i do it because i want to get rid of the pain...
i just wish that there would be someone who'd comfort me now,
shoutout:
I NEED YOU NOW. BUT WHERE DID YOU GO?
