Sunday, August 24, 2008 ~ 9:26 PM
my sweetest mistake.
i just realized something about myself...
i'm a girl who loves reading shoujo manga...*omg... i'm an otaku*
i'm waiting for the perfect prince to come and lift me off my feet...
*sigh* i'm a sucker for love...
there's no such things as happy endings and boys telling me that they'll protect me...
i'm living in my own fairytale...
where i'm happy and loved...
*sigh* it must be nice being a manga character...
you always seem to have a happy ending...
being with the one you love...
where in reality...
it's all a lie...
nobody will ever love me...
the way a hero loves his princess...
i can never say that the hatred and loneliness in my heart...
has been gradually dissolved by the one i love...
i'll just continue on smiling even though it hurts...
i'll still smile when all i want to do is to shed my tears...
seeing the one i love...
with the person that is not me...
is like stabbing a sharp knife through my heart...
hurting painful sadness...
haha... guys are so unfair...
just by smiling once they make you feel like forgiving them for everything...there will be a time...
when this heart-wrenching pain will flow away together with the time all at once...
maybe one day...
i'll be able to learn how to let go...
*sigh* this is possibly the most depressing post i've written...
i'm all about heartbreaks i guess...
even though i'm not loved,
just like the idiot that i am, i'll keep loving him dearly...
for me, he's an irreplacable existence in my life...
the happiness of loving and the feeling of sorrow...
he taught me these...
he'll always be in the special place of my heart...
shoutout of the day:
i'll wait for you... but i can't wait forever...
