Tuesday, August 19, 2008 ~ 8:01 PM
my sweetest mistake.
in a soap bubble...
lightly floating towards infinity...
that is where i would like to be...
so i wouldn't be able to hear anything...
so i wouldn't be bound to hear anything...
to lose myself into oblivion and to avoid regretting a fading past...
that which, with all my being, i'd like to be my present and my future...
it would be funny if it didn't hurt so much, don't you think?
remembering the past whenever you talked t me and showed me that you cared...
to think that i, a girl who almost got everything i wanted, would dream of losing myself in nothingness...
here i am, typing the most difficult post i've ever had to do...
not knowing if i'd have the courage to post it.
that is exactly what i'm missing:
courage.do you remember our first encounter in speech and drama class?
there was so much sweetness in your eyes and your smile...
you told me, "i think i love you already"...
i would like to hear you say thhose words again with the same certainty...
if only...
for the last time...
i could lose myself in the warmth of your embrace...---------
maybe the people who have been with me since last year or sec 1 will know who this person is...
hahaha... i was reading some of my diaries and i came to two notes, filled with, what now seems to be nonesense...
it was all about my love for a certain person...
i loved him for 1 year, and 10 months...
cruel right?
oh... the cruel, unforgiving agony of loving somebody who can never be yours...
well, the truth hurts and the truth was that he could never be mine.
i'm happy about my position in his life now.
safe within the borders of my wall...
i can never fall in love...
shoutout:
sometimes it's better to be alone... that way nobody can hurt you....
