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Friday, July 25, 2008 ~ 2:27 PM

my sweetest mistake.

this is to the person who made my heart tremble with love and sadness...
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maybe it was never meant for us to have met.

everything seems like it was all just a set-up for us to cross each other's paths.

we looked into each other's eyes and there was zing

i let the zing take over just to see what happens...

but maybe...

maybe i should've never done that.

you crossed the barriers that i've put up to not let anyone get close to me.

you were able to see me for who i really am.

you taught me to smile.

you taught me to care.

i was happy even if i knew that it wouldn't last for long.

before i knew it, thoughts of you clouded my mind.

you were always there... every moment of everyday...

i was afraid to let you in even more.

but you were still able to go in.

i don't know how but you grabbed hold of my heart and refused to let go.

before i even knew it, i was slowly falling in love.

i've fallen in love before but that time it was different...

i felt happy because you paid so much attention to me...

but sad at the same time because i knew that you could never be mine.

we were good for each other, i guess- i realized.

but i held you too tightly that you slipped through my grip..

i was angry and confused.

you made me want something that i never thought i'd ever want.

you made me wish for the impossible.

for once i thought that maybe wishes do come true.

but you made me wish and you made me eager..

eager for your love, eager for you.

though these words may not make any sense to you

i just want to tell you this...

i never stopped loving you. it's true...

i found someone else but they could never fill that place just for you.

maybe i'm dumb or maybe i'm crazy

but there's still a tinge of hope in me that someday...

just someday...

you'll realize that you were meant for me and i was meant for you...

i promised myself i'd never admit that i loved you...

that i was in love you.

that i still love you.

but it seems like i'll never get the chance to say these words to you...

so i'll say this now before anything else...

i never stopped yearning for you... wyn heng.

try as i may i can never stop...

it's all your fault.

maybe now, i can let go of you and not cry everytime i think of you and what could have been..

but i guess i realized everything too late...
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well there goes my confession.

it seems like i can love in peace again...

then again...

maybe not...