Saturday, May 3, 2008 ~ 8:26 AM
my sweetest mistake.
i had that dream again... the one i thought i've forgotten...
the dream where i was this monster...
in that dream i was heartbroken...
there was this man from the shadows and he consoled me...
and then he kissed me..
afterwards my "friends" came and i was in pain...
the man was saying, "come on jem, how do you feel? you can't control what's inside you!!! you've always been a monster... look at yourself!!"
true enough, when i looked at my reflection, i was like this crow demon...
i didn't want to do it but i started killing everybody... even the ones i loved...
i was so scared.. i started crying and everybody around me was calling me a monster...
i cried and i cried..
until my brother woke me up...
he said iwas whimpering and he thought something was wrong...
i'm scared.. what does that dream mean?
am i really a monster?
when i woke up at 3, i couldn't sleep anymore...
i'm scared...
I AM NOT EATING MORE THAN 5 SUSHI ANYMORE!!!!it's freaking me out...
i'm supposed to go t3 with nick and grace...
i think grace is going to bail and nick is angry at me coz i fell asleep last night...
i'm causing too much trouble to everybody...
