Tuesday, May 27, 2008 ~ 10:40 PM
my sweetest mistake.
haaaa... this sucks...
i was talking to nick but he fell asleep i think...
haaa... now i have nobody to talk to...
haaa.. i'm so bored now and i suddenly remembered bad memories of the sea...
that particular summer, our sec 3 camp... all resulting to me being traumatized for life...
i will never ever come close to the sea again...
oh!! i remembered that i had this weird dream about jin hyeok last night... i forgot what it was about but it was about jin hyeok and something about him dancing...
anyway my aunty told me that when i was a baby, i was so afraid of thunder and lightning that whenever she would carry me and there was either one of them, i'd hold on tightly to her and even if she let go, i wouldn't fall...
she was laughing when i told her that i'm still afraid until now...
i think i was a freak when i was a child...
haaaa... a lot of kids picked on me coz i was japanese...
that's why i didn't have lots of friends while i was growing up...
i was always the odd one in the crowd... i still am actually...
haaa... i guess this post is nothing more but bad memories of my, what seemed to be, wretched childhood...
i can't say that everything was bad coz everything that happened to me before made me what i am today...
haaaa... but the now me is also not the best of all people...
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... this totally sucks man...
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