Humanimal. =]

Friday, April 25, 2008 ~ 7:33 PM

my sweetest mistake.

this should be the last entry for todaY..

just arrived home from east coast park... *x-country*

didn't run my 2.4 but still got tanned *took photos*

anyway, before going to ecp went to cafe with nick and eric

had fun there... ate lasagna and shared with nick...

eric (to me): you go kiss him
nick: cannot lah (leaning towards me)
eric: can lah!!!
nick: cannot lah! (then kisses me)

burned myself and fell down face flat while taking video of the runners...

haaaa...

i have a lot of problems and i don't know how to solve them...

i went home with nick and sat beside him...

then i did something to him that made me think that i was rushing our relationship...

we agreed to do it one day at a time but i just wanted to rush...

i wanted to punish myself so now i won't eat...

I WON'T EAT!

i dunnoe how exactly that punishes me but i like it...

that way, i'll lose some weight... nick said i'm fat.....

i am a fat girl who's world revolves around my butt...

*exasperated sigh* i feel... USELESS...

oh yeah... nick's keeping something from me... he and eric were like whispering about something...

i'm naturally curious so i can't help but think what it is...

haaa... i wonder what it is...

ok...

i will try to figure out what is that...

kelvin: there's a mosquito on your face
me: don't have!
kelvin: got!! there! (points to my nose)
me: (brushes off something from my nose) oh yeahh.. there WAS a mosquito on my nose...

i don't know who to believe anymore...

is everybody lying to me? is everybody the same as everyone else?

i want to hear nick tell me that he love me.. i don't know why... i just want to hear him say those words...

i'm very sensitive today... i don't know why...

i miss a lot of people...

i'm hollow...