Saturday, April 12, 2008 ~ 11:07 PM
my sweetest mistake.
i have friends but i cannot trust most of them
there are some who i can trust with my life but those are the people who are really close to me
but the people of 3eb are hypocrites.. most of them.. but not all
they're all "AFINA-clones"
hate her..
want to strangle her until she screams for mercy
but.. i must ignore her..
i don't want to scare everyone away..
haaaaa...
life is so hard...
i had to do emcee-ing yesterday..
totally did my best..
i think it's because both of them were there..
well, one was...
the past went off after he said goodbye to me
the current one just sat there..
haaaa...
i love them both...
but i must choose one..
i'm so confused!!!
the other day, zhi han, grace, afiq and kelvin went to my house to eat pringles (-__-)
well, zhi han came to eat pringles..
grace came to drink water and to pee...
afiq and kelvin came to watch tv..
these are some of my trusted friends..
fun, trustworthy, caring, a little bit weird
but they'll never betray you..
sometimes i feel like i'm the luckiest person on earth
but most times, i just feel alone..
what will happen to me if i suddenly move again?
then i'd have to carry on with another facade..
i'd have to adjust to everything again..
the new home, the new atmosphere, new school, new everything..
*sigh* i want to be trapped in a soap bubble
where i can scream all i want but noone will hear me..
where i can cry and be myself and noone can ever judge me or hurt me ever again...
i want to be free of this huge burden in my chest that i just can't seem to ever let go...
it's so painful...
haaaa...
the hardest way to lose someone is when they're right beside you and you know you can never be together...
