Wednesday, November 25, 2009 ~ 1:50 AM
my sweetest mistake.
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?
Monday, November 23, 2009 ~ 11:10 PM
my sweetest mistake.
It's been too long.
haaa.
well once again I am at wits end trying to fall asleep.
seems like I'm having this problem occur more and more.
*sigh*
well my life has been all but interesting.
been working my ass off for the past few days.
honestly, I'd rather work than laze around at home, doing nothing but console myself in my state of loneliness.
*sigh*
well emoing aside, work was fun.
met cool people.
my first day was so radical.
there was this guest who was quite old and i kept serving him wine.
then he said, "OKAY, THIS IS THE LAST TIME. AFTER THIS I'M GOING TO A CLUB TO DRINK SOME MORE. YOU WANT TO COME ANOT?"
freaking hilarious man.
unfortunately i couldn't do anything but smile.
saturday went to work as well...
THERE WAS THIS CUTE GUY IN ONE TABLE I WAS IN CHARGE OF.
seriously made my day.
hahaha.
then holly, suveer and i missed the last train home so we were kinda stuck in orchard.
decided to walk around abit and eat breakfast since all our families don't expect us to be back till the wee hours of the morning.
yup yup...
super fun walking around orchard at 1 am.
couldn't sleep after that so stayed up till I went to church.
quite fun too...
we planned for youth camp during the holidays and it was really really mind-boggling.
practiced for 5th sunday worship, went home then fell asleep.
hehehe.
then couldn't sleep again.
-.-
oh well.
hoping that the following days would be more productive than the other.
shoutout: I COME TO YOU IN PIECES, SO YOU CAN MAKE ME WHOLE.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009 ~ 5:32 PM
my sweetest mistake.
THANKS FOR MAKING ME A FOOL.
thanks for telling me you'll come here today.
thanks for making me wait for you.
i cancelled all my appointments today just so i can spend the day with you.
and guess what?
YOU FLIPPING STOOD ME UP.
THANKS FOR TELLING ME YOU WOULDN'T COME.
THANKS SO MUCH.
~ 11:44 AM
my sweetest mistake.
well it's 11- sth in the morning now.
the house is so gloomy maybe coz either my brother's not yet awake or i refuse to open the windows and let some light in.
yesterday was quite fun.
went to tita odie's friend's house yesterday
actually i went there before but it was a long time ago.
so yeah....
she was having a baby shower so she needed people to help prepare the food.
I MADE PIZZA FROM SCRATCH.
and by scratch i mean the mixing of flour, yeast, waiting an hour for it to rise, and the best part was the kneading.
everybody was happy i was there to help them knead the dough.
i honestly had fun.
i met alot of super fun people there.
had a good time.
i was smsing jiawei, as always, then the aunties there thought he was my bf.
hahaha.
speaking of him he's quite a fun person to talk to. LIKE HONESTLY.
he doesn't talk nonsense.
we planned to go out sometime and go drinking.
hahaha. cool right?
*sigh*
so yeah...
yesterday was fun, monday was ok-ok.
HOPING TODAY WILL BE SURPRISING.
shoutout: YOU'RE MY HEARTBREAKER.
Monday, November 16, 2009 ~ 10:52 PM
my sweetest mistake.
it took me so long to figure out what to type...
O-LEVELS ARE FINISHED~!
today was actually my graduation day.
IT WAS TRULY FUN.
shouted mr tan's name when he won "THE MOST INSPIRING TEACHER AWARD".
he truly is one.
laughed so hard at mr hiu's jokes while he was emceeing.
MR HIU'S LAME JOKE:
MR. HIU: an ant saw an elephant walking towards it ah, then it hid in a hole and left one leg out of the hole. a horse came by and asked the ant, "EH WHY YOU GOT ONE LEG OUT OF THE HOLE?" you know what the ant answered?MS. NUR: what??
MR. HIU: SHHHH! i want to trip the elephant!!
lol.
lame right??
then ate dinner...
TALKED TO MR TAN!!
ME: mr tan where are you going during the holidays?
MRT: oh. a forest.
ME: seriously lah!
MRT: serious!
ME: go there for?
MRT: I'M GOING RE-SERVICE!
hehehe...
while i was talking to him, felt like somebody was staring at me.
i turned around and i saw jeco.
he kept glaring at me for no reason at all and it felt so awkward.
then before he left, i was looking at shaun and he passed by and he gave me this menacing glare.
SERIOUSLY GAVE ME THE CREEPS.
i'm happy that eric was there to keep me company.
grace and suveer went also to give me support so that was quite touching.
*sigh*
wasn't really happy though coz HE wasn't there.
*sigh* well i can't have everything.
shoutout: I WAS A FOOL TO BELIEVE I COULD EVER BE HAPPY.
Monday, November 9, 2009 ~ 3:29 PM
my sweetest mistake.
There's nothing more left for me to say.
I'M TOO TIRED. physically, mentally and emotionally.
*sigh*
maybe it's the lack of sleep or me being unwell that's making me so delirious and shit.
*sigh*
i was so angry last night that i fell asleep early.
then at somewhere around 2, i suddenly woke up!
saw a message and was too angry to reply.
then i tried to get back to sleep but i couldn't so i decided to go online.
so to sum it all up, i chatted with TOH JIA WEI FROM 2 IN THE MORNING UNTIL 7.
after i logged off we exchanged a few sms and i went to sleep.
WOKE UP TWO HOURS LATER.
saw an sms from him but decided to ignore it
then went back to sleep and woke up at 2. *why do i keep waking up at 2?*
replied dear.
he was supposed to come here today but due to certain circumstances it was decided that he wouldn't.
i was so frustrated that my whole mind turned blank.
I'VE NEVER FELT SUCH NUMBNESS IN MY LIFE.
now trying to get back to sleep so that i won't hear any messages and calls from anybody.
I DON'T KNOW HOW MY HEART WILL TAKE IT KNOWING IT WILL NEVER BE FROM HIM.
shoutout: NUMBNESS HOORAH.
Sunday, November 8, 2009 ~ 10:02 PM
my sweetest mistake.
WOOOOO!!! holiday already!
*ahem*
technically, O level's not yet done but the only papers I have left are all MCQs sooo JAJAJAJAAA!
haaaa..
these past few days have been hell to me.
NOTHING MORE THAN EMOING AND SHIT.
since i was stuck in bed, might as well emo right?
seriously had so many ups and downs regarding my health.
until now i'm still recuperating so get well soon to me!
*sigh*
today pretty much sucked as well.
couldn't sleep again last night. *haven't been sleeping well the whole week*
so finally dozed off at around 6 and woke up at 8 to get ready for church.
KILLER MAN.
*sigh*
then blah blah blah.
went to church yadda yadda.
he called me and since i wasn't free to talk to him he asked when my church would end and i told him at 11.
so the bugger said he'd call at that time so blah blah blah smiley face.
then church ended and i waited for my phone to ring.
ALL I GOT WERE MESSAGES FROM ERIC AND JORDY.
i swore i was literally looking at my phone every 5 minutes to check whether or not he called.
i was foolishly honest enough to wait for him to call.
frustration filled me up so badly i cried.
I CRY WHEN I GET REALLY REALLY REALLY ANGRY.
i don't know why but no matter how much i don't want to cry, it just keeps dropping.
*sigh*
now i'm too tired to even wait anymore.
maybe he's got an excuse and i'm sure it's valid enough but i just want to lie in my own grave and never have to hear anything again.
shoutout: ADIEU.
Thursday, November 5, 2009 ~ 1:57 AM
my sweetest mistake.
it's 2 am...
i can't sleep because of my bloody cold.
okayy.
this week was quite fun.
monday- had my social studies and chemistry test.
studied venice so hard for ss, IT DIDN'T COME OUT.
luckily there was bonding singapore so quite relieved.
had lunch with nick, yuichi and eric. *brunch actually*
then went to library where i saw grace yong~!!
went back to school and took my chem paper.
arrived home feeling so dizzy and immediately fell asleep.
THROAT STARTED BECOMING SORE AND MY TEMPERATURE INCREASED TO 38.9
cursed myself for having a fever and fell asleep.
tuesday: woke up at 9, watch tv, eat a bit of breakfast, bathe, went back to sleep.
dear came to visit so was pretty elated but too weak to show.
lost count of how many times i fell asleep.
played our usual game. I LOST. T_T
then he went home and i instantly fell asleep.
so temperature rose again.
HERE'S THE CATCH: I FELL ASLEEP CLUTCHING THE SHIRT DEAR BORROWED.
wednesday: went to school to take exams
surprisingly i felt ok.
then went home then cold acted up again.
hence the inability for me to fall asleep
haaa... now talking to jordy online.
we both cannot sleep.
lol.
shoutout: BE GONE YA STUPID BLOODY COLD.
