Humanimal. =]

Sunday, June 28, 2009 ~ 10:26 PM

my sweetest mistake.

IN THE PROCESS OF FIXING MY BLOG!!!!

yeah i know it looks crappy.

SHUDDUP!

~ 8:55 PM

my sweetest mistake.

IT'S ANOTHER WEEK OF NOT UPDATING AGAIN!!

gahhhh....

well tomorrow's the start of the new semester again.

GOOD THING: I GET TO SEE HIM AGAIN.
BAD THING: ... well i'm still too psyched on the good reason that i can't really think of anything else yet.

anyway nothing much happened this week.

basically i was recovering from my loss of voice.

GRACE CAME OVER TO MY HOUSE!!! wehehehe. last tuesday.

nyaha.

well after that i can't really remember anything...

my family and ben went to pasir ris park for some picnic thing yesterday.

quite fun actually.

TRUTHFULLY, I'D RATHER SIT IN A PARK THAN GO SHOPPING.

so yeah, we stayed there until 10++ then went home.

so SUNDAY! went to church blah blah same old shit.

so yeah...

kinda relaxing now, thinking about how will tomorrow go.

well tomorrow's our second month *yay* and also, as grace and zhi han knows, OUR DUE DATE.

so hoping his decision would be the good side and not the one that i'm rather dreading.

*sigh*

well, no point getting depressed over the simplest of things.

i already know this day would come.

just didn't expect it to arrive so fast.

*sigh* well i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i would be wrong.

shoutout: IS TRUE LOVE REALLY ONCE IN A LIFETIME?

Tuesday, June 23, 2009 ~ 10:57 AM

my sweetest mistake.

OK YAY!!! I'M UPDATING AGAIN!!

just got back from youth camp!!!!

woooohoooo~!

so fun!!!

TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO COPE PICS PLEASE GO TO MY FB!

was seriously fun man.

i lost my voice from laughing too hard.

ok!! i was in the PA JIAO GROUP!!!

PA JIAO GROUP consists of me, shi pei, jia le, setho, nick ho, justin yeo and michelle lim.

WE ROCKED MAN!!!

anyway on the first night right,we went to bugis and watched GHOST OF GIRLFRIEND'S PAST.

then we walked all the way from KALLANG TO EAST COAST PARK!!!

super fun coz we were all so shagged coz it was like 2++ am already...

almost lost my temper to michelle lim coz she was soooooooo irritating. she kept talking nonesense and kept asking the obvious.

THANKS TO JIA LE, NICK HO, AND SHI PEI FOR HELPING ME KEEP MY COOL.

anyway had a nice sleep and woke up to jervis' chatter.

then played BETRAYAL ON THE HOUSE ON THE HILL (we played this during good friday)

so as always, played it with setho, NYAMO (grace's new name), and fabian

AND AS ALWAYS, I BECAME THE TRAITOR.

the good thing was i managed to kill fabian. *commence evil laughter*

bad thing was setho and grace managed to escape.

IT'S SO UNFAIR COZ WHEN THEY ALL PLAYED IT WITHOUT ME AND FABIAN BECAME TO TRAITOR, HE WAS ABLE TO WIN IN A MATTER OF 5 MINUTES.

wtheck man, WTHECK!!!

OH YEAH!!! WE HAVE A NEW FOOSBALL TABLE IN OUR YOUTH ROOM!! yay.

so yeah, setho and asyraf decided to play twister and it was so funny.

THEN CHRISTIAN, MY BROTHER, AND TIM CHU DECIDED TO FOLLOW UP AND IT WAS HILARIOUS.

i seriously couldn't stop laughing and grace was like, "SHUDDUP JEM!!! YOUR LAUGHTER IS SO CONTAGIOUS!!"

so yeah. lost my voice.

then blah blah.

everybody was sleeping except for me and christian.

WE WERE LAUGHING UNTIL 5 IN THE MORNING!!!

so we decided to sleep since we still had church later on.

SO SUNDAY!!!

we didn't have our usual youth blah.

instead we had an A.A.R. (after action report)

then kenneth showed us this slideshow with all our photos

AND THERE WAS A PHOTO OF ME LAUGHING SO HARD IN THE TWISTER GAME!!!

it even had a circle and there was a caption saying, "WHAT THE...?"

so yeah... took some photos then went home and slept!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

so yeah. pretty fun actually.

shoutout: G4C ROCKS!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009 ~ 10:22 PM

my sweetest mistake.

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT LIFE COULDN'T GET EVEN MORE FUCKED UP.

my dad emailed my mom and told her some things that really irritates me.

TO SUM IT ALL, MY BROTHER AND I ARE LEAVING SINGAPORE AT THE END OF THE YEAR.

so damn fucked up.

i called sweetheart and tried my best not to cry to him...

so unhappy.

but thanks to ERN, ERIC, ALFIE, ANA *friend from Phils* AND MY SWEETHEART, I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER.

thanks guys.

shoutout: YOU MAKE IT SEEM LIKE I HAVE A CHOICE.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009 ~ 8:05 PM

my sweetest mistake.

bleh.... nothing better to do.

THINGS I WANT TO DO AFTER I TURN 18!! meaning, AFTER MY O'S!!

- go to zouk. OR GO BAR-HOPPING.

- move out.

- go to malaysia with some friends for a period of time!!!!! FUN FUN FUN!!

- go backpacking in thailand.

- MOVE OUT.

- go to sentosa and drown there.

- hhhmmmm. MAKE OUT WITH MY SWEETHEART IN EVERY CORNER OF SINGAPORE.

yup. that's probably it.

AS IF IT'D REALLY COME TRUE.

~ 10:56 AM

my sweetest mistake.

well just woke up!!

seriously on a high.

saturday didn't do much.

sunday found out that more than half of the youth went for shi pei's dance thingy in hwachong.

i know i was the one who said i didn't want to go, BUT FOR SOME REASON I FEEL LIKE I'M LEFT BEHIND.

monday, cleaned the house, cooked then went to tampines interchange with my brother to meet my sweetheart.

then the three of us went to sports complex to go swimming.

I HAVEN'T SWAM IN 2 YEARS SO WAS PRETTY PUMPED.

what i basically did was drown and hang on to jeco most of the time.

IT'S CUTE TO KNOW THAT MY BROTHER AND HIM GET ALONG FINE.

yup it was fun.

well the two of just basically wouldn't let go of each other the whole time.

then he started staring at those bikini girls then i didn't talk to him.

then blah he went to my house for lunch then left to meet jordy in century square.

so after GOD-KNOWS-HOW-LONG days since i've seen my sweetheart, i managed to spend 4 hours with him...

*sigh*

shoutout: I'M BEING LEFT BEHIND AGAIN.

~ 10:06 AM

my sweetest mistake.

SOME RANDOM QUIZ ERIC TAGGED ME TO DO.

1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed ?
-Neck.

2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
-Shagged.

3) Who was the last person you talked to ?
-can't remember. my mom.

4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
-more or less

5) Would you donate blood ?
-SURE.

6) Have you ever had a best friend who is the opposite sex ?
-yup. still have.

7) Do you want someone dead ?
-dead is such a strong word. MORE LIKELY KILLED.

8) What does the last message in your phone say ?
-"Luv u..."

9) What are you thinking about right now ?
-breakfast.

10) Do you wish someone was with you right now ?
-yeah.

11) What time did you go to bed last night ?
- quite early... 11++

13) Is someone in your mind ?
-YEAH.

14) Who was the last person you texted ?
- mrs pereira.

15) 10 people tagged to do quiz .
1. Eric
2. Buncha
3. Ern
4. Heni
5. Grace
6. Setho
7. Hollie
8. Shanice
9. Grace Yong
10. Eugene

16) Who is 2 having relationship with ?
- Nobody. she's flirting with chuan sin.

17) Is 3 male or female ?
- last time i checked ERN WAS MALE.

18) If 7 & 6 get together , would it be a good thing ?
- sure but they don't know each other.

19) What is 1 studying?
- dunnoe.

20) When was the last time you chat with 5 ?
- before the school holidays.

21) Is 4 single ?
- i think so.

22) Say something about 2 ?
- CUTE!!! ADORABLE!! interesting to talk to.

23) What do you think of 3 & 6 being together ?
- HAHAHAHAHAH!!! gay much.

24) What do you think if 6 & 7 fight ?
- they don't know each other.

25) Do you like 3 ?
- sure. like a little brother.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage:
- water

2. Last phone call:
- my sweetheart

3. Last text message:
- "Luv u..."

4. Last song you listened to:
- Amigo by SHINee

5. Last time you cried:
- last night.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice:
- sure.

7. Been cheated on:
- yep.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it:
- nope.

9. Lost someone special:
- sure.

10. Been depressed:
- i'm depressed everyday.

11. Been drunk and threw up:
- nah.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. red
14. blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend:
- sure. THE ESSS GANG.

16. Laughed until you cried:
- i do that every single day.

17. Met someone who changed you:
- i think so.

18. Found out who your true friends were:
- yup.

19. Found out someone was talking about you:
- yeah.

20. How many kids do you want to have:
- 3 kids.

21. Do you have any pets:
- 2 turtles

.22. Do you want to change your name:
- nah. it's cool at times.

23. What did you do for your last birthday?
- depressed.

24. What time did you wake up today?
- 9 ++

25. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- sleeping.

26. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
- O'LEVELS and THE 29TH OF EACH MONTH.

27. Last time you saw your Mother:
- last night

28. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:
- my height.

29. What are you listening to right now:
- nothing. it's dead quiet.

30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:
- nooo.

31. What's getting on your nerves right now:
- this freaking cold.

32. Most visited webpage:
- facebook. blog.

33. Whats your real name:
- Jemimah Ira Bulseco Tabalada (english) Yao Zhi Man (chinese)

34. Nicknames:
- Jem, Jemi, ManMan, Butter

35. Relationship Status:
- Attached

36. Zodiac sign?:
- Leo

37. Male or female?:
- FEMALE

38. Elementary school?:
- i moved alot so i have a lot of elementary schools

39. Middle School?:
- International Christian Academy School and Woodridge College

40. High school/college?:
- Woodridge College

41. Hair colour:
- Dark brown

42. Long or short:
- Long

43. What do you like about yourself?:
- i can punch really hard XD

44. Piercings:
- 3

45. Tattoos:
- Bo. but i want.

46. Righty or lefty:
- righty

FIRSTS :

47. First surgery:
- BO.

48. First piercing:
- ear piercings. can't remember when.

49. First best friend(s):
- Donna Camille Dayandante

50. First sport you joined:
- Basketball

51. First vacation:
- can't remember

52. First pair of trainers:
- can't remember

RIGHT NOW

53. Eating:
- nothing

54. Drinking:
- nothing

55. I'm about to:
- faint from hunger

56. Listening to:
- cars passing by

57. Waiting on:
- the world to change

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids?:
- sure

59. Get Married?:
- sure

60. Career?:
- lawyer?

Which is Better ? :

61. Lips or eyes:
- both

62. Hugs or kisses:
- kisses

63. Shorter or taller:
- taller

64. Older or Younger:
- older *not too old*

65. Romantic or spontaneous:
- spontaneous

66. Nice stomach or nice arms:
- nice arms

67. Sensitive or loud:
- loud

68. Hook-up or relationship:
- relationship

69. Trouble maker or hesitant:
- troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER :

70. Kissed a stranger:
- no

71. Drank hard liquor:
-no

72. Lost glasses/contacts:
- yeah

73. Sex on first date:
- no

74. Broke someone's heart:
- i think so.

75. Been arrested:
- nah

76. Turned someone down:-
- yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. Yourself:
- not so.

78. Miracles:
- nope

79. Love at first sight:
- sure

80. Heaven:
- yup

81. Santa Claus:
- definitely not

82. Angels:
- sure

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

83. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:
- no

84. Did you sing today?:
- no

85. Ever cheated on somebody?:
- no

86. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:
- before i was born

87. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?:
- December 3

88. Are you afraid of falling in love?:
- no. i'm in love aren't i?

89. Posting this as 90 truths?:
- sure

90. Love yourself?:
- not so.

Sunday, June 14, 2009 ~ 5:48 PM

my sweetest mistake.

STUCK IN THE SAME PACE WHILE EVERYBODY MOVES IN FAST FORWARD MOTION.

i hate the way we make plans yet i'm the only one who seems to keep them in mind.

i hate the way you make me feel so happy over something just to eventually kill that happiness.

i hate they way i seem to be the only one who's feeling the loneliness from being apart.

THANK YOU FOR WAKING ME UP FROM THIS FAIRYTALE-LIKE DREAM I LET MYSELF LIVE IN.

thanks to you, I'M SUCCUMBING TO THE HOLLOWNESS AGAIN.

shoutout: WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU THE MOST?

Saturday, June 13, 2009 ~ 7:11 PM

my sweetest mistake.

I AM SLOWLY DECAYING INTO THE NOTHINGNESS OF MY HEART.

it's been 10 days since i last saw my sweetheart....

FREAKING UNHAPPY.

as if to add salt to my wound, he can't contact me coz he never paid his phone bill so communication is NADA.

sure he called once. ONCE.

i want to see him again.

*sigh*

shoutout: YOU MADE ME BELIEVE THAT I WAS ONLY WORTH WHAT PEOPLE THOUGHT ME TO BE.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009 ~ 6:48 PM

my sweetest mistake.

read it and understand me.

well just came back from school so SERIOUSLY FEELING SO FUCKED UP NOW.

it's been exactly one week since i last saw him.

FTARDS. LEAVE ME BE. I ONLY WANT HIM.

so shitty.

gawd.

shoutout: I WISH I WAS WITH YOU.

Monday, June 8, 2009 ~ 8:53 PM

my sweetest mistake.

short post. like really.

today:

I. AM. FUCKED. UP.

peace out.

Sunday, June 7, 2009 ~ 7:40 PM

my sweetest mistake.

oh yes... this is my family of bears.

hehehehehe.

MAMA BEAR- me
EX-PAPA BEAR- nicklaus
PAPA BEAR- jeco
MINI MINI MINI TEDDY BEAR- grace
MINI MINI TEDDY BEAR- yu xian
MINI TEDDY BEAR- zhi han
TEDDY BEAR- yi zhong
BEAR- zi yao.

HAHAHAH!! soon to add: BABY BEAR- keith. LOL!

so random.

well as usual nothing much happened to me on this fateful sunday.

went out with the usual G4C gang.

then jensen, fabian and nick ho went to my house to have a movie marathon.

TRUTHFULLY, THEY JUST LEFT.

so yeah. watched FINAL DESTINATION 1 AND 2.

it's been so long since i watched final destination 2 and watched the first one for the first time.

so it was quite cool in a way coz we talked and talked while eating and such.

hehehe,

REMEMBER AH!! THE FOUR OF US WILL WATCH FINAL DESTINATION 4!!!

heheh.

well yeah.

i was supposed to go out with my sweetheart but then i told him that i wasn't free, then when i told him i was free already he said he couldn't go out coz he was going to meet his friend.

then this morning i asked him if he wanted to have lunch with us, then he said he was going to church.

then when we reached my house, i asked him where he was then he said HE WAS IN TAMPINES MALL!!

SO YEAH. FREAKIN PISSED.

but blah heck care.

shoutout: I CHOOSE YOU!

Friday, June 5, 2009 ~ 5:04 PM

my sweetest mistake.

HAVE YOU EVER LOVED SOMEBODY SO MUCH IT MAKES YOU CRY?

well just the usual shit has been happening to me.

went to school on tuesday and wednesday for lessons.

it's so boring right now.

been doing nothing except cook, cook, AND COOK.

yup yup yup.

been spending alot of time with my sweeatheart nowadays.

it's quite fun actually.

well nothing much has been happening to me lately.

seriously wish that i could just sleep the whole day and not go through the hassle of waking up again and again and again.

been feeling down this past two days.

i feel like i didn't do anything productive except cook.

*sigh*

shoutout: LOST IN THIS FURY OF PASSION JUST FOR TWO.