Friday, June 13, 2008 ~ 6:58 PM
my sweetest mistake.
nothing much happened...
i'm stuck in a nightmare i can't wake up from...
i can't tell my left from my right, i don't know where i'm going...
i'm screaming at people but they pass on without ever noticing me...
i want to be free from the burdens trapped inside my heart...
maybe i should take my mom's offer: to either go for professional help... or to live with my dad in canada...
there's something wrong with me...
i'm stuck in my worthless 16 year old body that restricts me from grasping what i long the most: freedom
i want to be understood by people but it seems like not one can understand me...
it's just like before but it hurts much more now...
because i let my guard down and allow these people to captivate me and break me into pieces without me knowing it...
i've tried my best to hold onto my depression and blah...
but still people think that i'm acting emo when i'm not...
i'm not emo but i'm just depressed, alone and broken...
i was walking on the street when my cousin pulled me back suddenly...
it seems like i was inches away from being hit by a truck...
my cousin said that i seemed to be out of the sorts so i taked to her...
at first i hesitated but with a few words i broke down and cried...
i told her everything between sobs...
some of my burden was released but i'm still pained...
nobody can help me now...
